Venting

It truly has been a long while since I wrote a blog post. I suppose I just lost interest in blogging about senseless, meaningless stuff, happily raving on about my interests and small happenings in my life that mean close to nothing.

So I figure, why not use it to vent and rant instead? Maybe no one will see this, but it gives me an outlet at the very least.

Right, University, Bachelor of Commerce, majoring in Accounting. Completely and utterly fucked up my Accounting (Financial) 250 exams. Depending on how badly I failed, there are two outcomes:

1. I score at least 45% for the module, and get to re-take the paper without having to go through the entire module again.

2. I score below 45% for the module, and have to re-do the entire module. This will add another semester to my quest for a degree, and cost me S$2000+

Outcome 2 is undesirable. Main reason why, is the extra 4 months I have to spend to get a degree. I am anxious to start working, to start having an income. Many have asked why am I rushing with life when someone at my age (20) should be taking his own time discovering himself and enjoying life, after all, once this part of your life passes, you're never gonna get it back!

 The responses I have given range from the light-hearted "I want money" to the possibly naive "I'd rather spend time earning money, than spending money to spend time". Notice how all of these reasons revolve around money, for that is key. My parents are able to provide for me. While we are not exactly rich, we are well off, but it is evident that having to provide for a person's tertiary education alongside another's secondary education does put a burden on them because education is not cheap.

The one reason that I want so badly to start working as soon as I am capable, which I have not yet told anyone, is because I want to start providing for my family, regardless of how small my contributions are. More specifically, I want to help pay for my younger brother's education. I want to lessen the burden on my parents. While I do hide some resentment from past circumstances, let me make it clear that I am very grateful for the opportunities my parents have provided me with, and the fact that they have provided for me my entire life. NOTHING I can ever hope to do, will be able to compensate in any way or form for that.

So let's make this clear. I am not rushing through life. I simply know what I want out of it, and want as much as possible, to achieve those objectives as fast as I can.